The Olympic Flame

I just watched the Olympic Flame come into Barrie and was lit here for the night. Woo Woo!!!!!!!!!!!! I am frozen. People were so happy and it was quite a crowd.

Balance and Living

Life is a struggle at times and it can feel like there is no hope.
With perseverence and faith I can triumph and then hope resurfaces.
Yesterday I was not ok. Today I am ok.
I just wanted to write that.

Jobs Jobs Jobs

Geesh! All I do is job hunt. I have no life LOL. But, I figure, I have to get one to have a life. LOL Have an interview tomorrow and just sent another two decent ones. Let's hope.

Pixar - Lifted

It's long, but sooooooooooooooo good. Congrats Pixar!

My Name is Janet !!!!!!

That's right, that's my name...don't wear it out! LOL
I'm learning to make my own movies now. (See Below)
My life is in tatters, but I still survive!!!!
Today, I walked to a job and got blown off. LOL What's a person to do?
The only good thing about all of this is that with the time, I've had the chance to put my life together....where I've been, what I've done, and it should lead to where I'm going.
To say..."Hey! I was here!"
I am good at so many things, have many talents and skills.
I am visual and am able to understand complex patterns and problems in order to solve them.
I am loving, caring, gentle.
I have so much to offer.

Second Movie

I had really great music, but can't get the Audioswap to work as yet. :(

My First Movie

I can only get better!

Michigan J. Frog

Always makes me laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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It's Kiddie or Kitty!

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Do I have this job or not? It's the weekend, and it drives me crazy LOL. I want to do something fun. I'm tired of job hunting. It's boring and the pay sucks. :)

I had to tell some people straight yesterday and today. I've been going through too much and I feel like I can't take it any more. Kiddie is being caring, she needs someone too.

Saving Jane singing "Supergirl" Funfest 2008

I"m Supergirl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Almost June

Well, have had a lot of jobs to apply to and still awaitin'. It's tiring, just waiting. A friend here just lost their mother after being in the hospital. Today is the funeral, so we are all pretty somber. Kitty or Kiddie is still a good friend.

It just drives me nuts that I can't just get work, go to work and earn some money so I can live calmly and even enjoy life a little. One good thing is that Allan has visited a few times. A good friend. I'm happy things are working out for him, his new job, family, etc.

Pretty well down to the bare bones here. Scraping each day to keep going. I'll be ok. Some employer will call. There are a couple of good ones too. I already know it works that way, one day it can be terrible and the next suddenly there is something to do, hope, a future. Come on people! I'm a good worker. LOL

Susan Boyle - Singer - Britains Got Talent 2009 (With Lyrics)

Beautiful

What to do, What to do

Not doing too well.
No jobs.
No money.
Feeling pretty sad.
I don't have any answers or know what to do about it.
That's about it really.

Hey Cool!

I just realized I learned to link a video from YouTube to my Blog and embedded my nephew's hockey stats!! Cool!

Allan called today. :) Calling again later. Was hoping for a call for an interview or job. Got an e-mail - REJECTION. LOL What else is new? I have a good shot at this next job. It's just always hard around the end of month because the pressure is so high.

I suppose I need to relax about that. I mean, I've made such good progress, settling in, getting active, adjusted, relaxed. Maybe I expect too much of myself. Once work comes and income with it, I won't have too much to worry about.

What I do have are friends, a love, a pet, access to computer (on-line), a room I like, pretty and useful things, good weather coming, good health overall. Could be worse.

Des'ree - Life

Spring!!!!

The world awaits. I embrace my own power. I am empowered once again. I wrote that in an earlier post and just liked it :)

Well, it's finally getting like Spring! Things are looking up. Job on the way, Kiddy, Ben, Jeff, Paul are all friends. I love Allan! LOL Mmmmmm.

Started making jewellry - beads, etc. - and they came out quite nice. Put on my work duds today to feel a little more ready to go. Have an interview and have sent out a lot of other resumes. I'm keeping my home.

Just added this blog to my Youtube Account but I don't see any listing there. Hmmm.

Life isn't so bad

Getting there....I have a home, support of friends. Have lots of resumes out there. Have someone to love and care about :)

Spring is just around the corner. Have some money on the way. Feeling better about myself, have gained a bit of weight. Have momentum. Keep going. And, relax! :)

Space and Ballet

I was given the opportunity to experience weightlessness. When I dance ballet I am free. I grew up with images of space exploration, my father in his short-sleeved white shirts and ties, my brothers collecting NASA stamps. The waltz of 2001-ASO is a ballet in the sky. I am surrounded with this, like a dance, dreams of being an astronaut, dancing, math and science. To fly. To see the Earth from heaven, the peace and the joy. One Earth. As in "Contact" as the camera moves further and further into space, into the past. I want to share this with Allan. I want to take you all there - into weightlessness, Zero G, the peace and the heaven, the quiet and calm of space. What gifts I have received. In return I sacrificed, as Ken Mattingly (Jim taught me that), and with the promise that with such sacrifice come later glories. I was given another gift of Puddy. And now, for the pain of loss, more gifts to help me through. I must have faith.

The time of growing up with my family, the family home is coming to a close. I am equally pushed away and pull away. I grieve in preparation for what no one can prepare for. Total recall of all events, fighting to prove my past, prove what I am, what I can be. Struggling to find a place in the present. I have a home now, friends. I need a living, a sustainable living to move forward, to deal with old issues, to live another 40-some years.

Decisions are made by all, on both sides of the plane and perhaps in others. This battle has been difficult for all involved. Thank you for my companions. To be able to meet with others, learn from each other, be assisted from the other side. What is this new era we are entering? Let Allan know I love him. I am here for you.

WOW

Hey Wow,
I just read my last post - I was really "on" that day...laugh.
since then, I had to leave my friend Gail...Hope she's ok.
Got a new place, have had to "breakdown" emotionally in order to survive.
Have a room, comfy cosy. Have a couple of job offers. Have to "calm" myself, try to relax and just know this will work out.
I think I have the support I need now, and will be able to live now.
Janet :)