Christmas is done and a New Year is Coming! Yeah 2008!!!

Took it easy over Christmas. It has been rough without Puddykins.

The person I rent a room from is going on vacation for 3 weeks and I hope to get myself back in shape, eating well, on a better schedule and working.

If I don't do a post...Happy New Year!!!!

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays Puddy. Love Janet, Always

Felt bad, Now feel LIKE DANCING!!

Got a response from Paul and got a great vid from surfcottage - You Make Me Feel Like Dancing!

Feeling better!

Keeping It Up

Hi There!

I know, I know, I haven't been keeping up the blog.

That's because I'm working and living and not really taking the time to sit at the computer and write.

I think of Puddy often. Tears, sadness. What can you do?

Work is good. I just got through my 3 month probation and got another little raise. Have to start saving money better. I'm in much better shape and things will get better.

It's Been A While

Ok, it's been awhile. Have been focusing on work and getting through.

I have Bailey the poodle puppy (Werner's dog) with me today again. She has visited three times before and is helping with my sadness over Puddy.

The time change is this weekend and I am sooooooo looking forward to getting my extra hour.

Work is going ok. Haven't been interested in cooking much lately. Just tired and adjusting to being older. Laugh.

Paul has written a couple of times.

I need to find some things to do.

Janet

Thanksgiving

Yes, it's Thanksgiving and I baked a pie (frozen) yesterday - pumpkin....yum.
Enjoying a little solitude today. A day off work. My roommate is at work until noonish.

Getting through the change of weather, time change coming up.

Just for info, for myself mostly, this was the second month I managed to pay the rent and feel much better about it. I bought a bedspread that I love. Still mourning Puddy. Been worse than usual lately.

Will be alright.

Just noticed...it says below that I posted this at 6:40 a.m. YEAH SURE It's 9:44 a.m. So, where are these three hours.. what time zone is this?!?! Laugh

Weekend

Just taking it easy after a week of feeling rundown.

Watched the season opener of Saturday Night Live last night. It was ok. I think I spotted Sophie, Lorne's daughter in a pumpkin sketch and Lorne did a backstage pretape with the host Lebron James (basketball player Cavaliers). It seemed like a tall vs. short set-up.

I wasn't sure whether to watch it. I have been grieving Puds. Thinking about my days at Saturday Night Live and wondering where I fit in, if at all. I feel good having my own money, being able to buy what I need and continue to rebuild. Sometimes it still feels overwhelming, but I'm not going to push myself too hard.

Paul wrote back. I was happy to hear from him. School is going well and he's having fun.

I seem more concerned about getting myself prepared for the cold weather, getting things I need (feeling normal) and finding things to do so I don't get to feel cooped up or trapped here. Going to go for a walk, feed the birds a half bag of food I have left, get some sun (Vit D) and fresh air. A slight gum infection has been bothering me, but I think I have it beat.

Just have to keep busy.....plan....consider....save some money...stay organized...keep working and I'll be alright.

Just Checking In

Not much happening. Not felt well for a few days.
Just getting through work and survivin.

Going Well

Hello,

Finished another week of work. Feeling grief and went shopping yesterday. Got a couple of beautiful sweaters, a music box that plays "If I were a Rich Man" - a musical I've loved since a child - and has some details about treasured memories, some decor items to make my room feel more like a home.

I found on the Net that on Oct. 30, A&E are releasing Saturday Night Live Biography. Looking forward to that and have a pict on my wall of the artwork.

Work is ok, on track. I need to concentrate on balancing the rest of my time - my diet, my sleep, meditation, exercise.

Busy, Busy, Busy

Ok, so today was weird. Soph had a car accident. Fortunately not serious and no one was hurt.
The fridge leaked water all over the place and the toilet overflowed. I was on mop duty.
Funny thing is, I brought my pom and tangerine fruitopia today instead of water.

Learning a lot at work. We will be changing over to Sage Business Vision soon. Someone mentionned that software to me years ago, but I can't remember who.

The owner/pres had me mail out an interesting letter today. I still think I know these people from somewhere.

Watched the Emmy's on Sunday night and have seen picts of Lorne. He looks very pleased with their Conan and 30 Rock wins. Bizarre...live.com has his house...yes his house on satellite for all to see. Feel bad, that is the down side of fame, no privacy.

Concentrating on my health. Bought coral calcium with magnesium and Vit D for the winter. Focusing no relaxing, breathing, being balanced. Have had some "psychic" flashes - linked to Brent. Think of Puds when I can and have to get myself to have a life outside of work - the balance.

What a Busy Week!

Well, it's been busy this week. Getting up to speed at work.
Gorgeous weather, although this weekend they are calling for colder temps.
Got some new clothes. A nice shirt with a butterfly insignia (striped) and some fleece vests. Still working on the sweater collection. At least it's a cheap yet useful hobby.
I have gained some weight (good) and feel like I'm stronger physically (another good sign).

Paul E-mailed!

Yeah!! Got an e-mail from Paul today, replied and he e-mailed again.
Sounds like school is disorganized at his end.
He said me YouTube page was AWESOME and I obviously had too much time on my hands. Laugh :)
I have a cool friend.

Another Week, Another Weekend

The short week is over. Doing OK. Prob just allergy season, soon be over.
Have to find things to do so I don't get bored.

Another Good Day :)

I Just noticed this in the News:

SNL Music available at Target - CD Elements include:
1. Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend
2. Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone
3. Foo Fighters - Best Of You
4. Arctic Monkeys - I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor
5. P!nk - Trouble
6. Nausea - Beck
7. Dave Matthews - Save Me
8. The Shins - Phantom Limb
9. The Strokes - You Only Live Once
10. Maroon 5 - Harder To Breathe
11. Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out

Mid Week Already

Things are going well. Getting to work on time, even woke up an hour early today.

My computer was upgraded and so I'm fiddling with that and learning.

Lorne has some speaking engagement with Michael P. of MP tonight.

Paul's Off to University

The end of the long weekend. Had a good rest. Enjoyed a sub.
Said bye to Paul the lifeguard. Hopefully, he'll e-mail.
Just checking in and getting ready for work.

The Long Weekend

It's the Labour Day Weekend.

Yesterday, I talked with Paul (Keyes?) the lifeguard. He's leaving after Monday to go to University. Met his dog and Mom momentarily. Then I went clothes shopping and got some Bugle Boy jeans, a top, a brown skirt I wanted and a great sports bag for carrying my stuff to work and back. All for $28 and change. Woo Woo.

Did a laundry load for the bed, which was hard because I had put it off with Puds dying. (Didn't want to erase her presence) Part of the grieving process I guess. Today I'm doing two loads (in now) of clothes so I'll be set for the week. I feel the freedom of having my own money/resources again and keep feeling the message of "pay yourself first".

Just thinking about a few things

Compared to a few months ago, my situation has improved. I'm not homeless, I have a job, I have an income, I can plan and hope again.

I have managed to gain a little weight and feel a bit better. There is a sense of hope and freedom due to the money coming in. I miss Puddy and cry almost every day. I'm still undecided about the SNL situation - whether to watch the show or just accept what has been.

It is too early yet...but I have been thinking of how to approach repairing some of the damage and balancing that with finally giving myself some niceties...perhaps a keyboard to play. I should invest in a small/basic computer, maybe a basic tv for my room. It's too soon. For now, food is good, being able to pay rent and buy necessities.

It is coming together.

It was Hot and Muggy

Ok, today was ok, even got a ride home and arrived at 5:00 p.m.
There was one problem. I guess with the doors closed I got hit by varnish fumes around lunchtime and it left me with vision probs and feeling kindof drunk. I have sensitivities to some chemicals, been ok for years, and I don't want to lose my job over it. So, let's hope it was just a bad combo day.

I have been concerned about Owen Wilson and his "suic. attempt". He's a real sweetie and was kind to me. Hope you are well Owen and things get better.

It's Tuesday

Hello, Hello

At work. Was just playing with my Janet-Puddy Avatar.
Stomach a bit off but I'll live. Note to self: Take your lactose pill.

Lazy, quiet weekend

Has a nice talk with Paul yesterday. Haven't done much else.
Just taking it easy and prepping for the work week.

Friday - What a Gorgeous Day!

Wow, the weather turned out great - keep calling for rainstorms.

I am looking forward to the weekend.
Next week I go full-time. I like the people here.
I am starting to plan things to do - take yoga classes, what to do with my income.
So, I am feeling almost human again.

A Day Off!

Ok, I got the option to take today off and I am so glad I did.
Starting work is tiring, lots to learn, and adjusting to schedule.
I've been tired and this is a good thing to catch up on a little me time.

The TADOO list (laugh):

• Got rid of the spam in Canada.com account
• Looking into YOGA classes on Torbram, $15 a class; joined e-mail list
• Ate a DOUBLE WHOPPER - need the fat!
• Bought another work top and the 50% off sale is a week on Tuesday (Sept 4th)
• Talked with Paul, my bud, mostly about pets. He leaves on Sept. 3rd for University (UT)

I feel great! Stay tuned.

IT'S MY JOB!!!

I just got hired full-time, Baby!!! Yes!!!

Woo woo!!! Yep, my part-time job is now full-time. Me happy.

Another Week!

Had work today and asked back tomorrow!

I'm glad. Tomorrow marks the 3 month date of Puddy's death. I don't want to be alone. Last night I had a crying fit and another minor one on the way home tonight. So, at least I have work.

It's great. The people are nice. It's quiet and I noticed today that the phone doesn't ring much - which after years of office work it a GODSEND. The time passes fast and the work is steady without too much rush. I'm also learning a lot about accounting. Before it had been in bits and pieces, but now I am starting to see how it all fits together.

Love to Puds. YYYYYYYYYYYYY

Finished my first full week!

I made it, in one piece and never late.

That's one full week under my belt.

Man I'm Tired

Ok, that's four days under my belt and one more to go...even better tomorrow is payday!!!!

I'm at Work!

Just worked 3 days (inclusive) - checking out my e-mails, etc. from here.
Things going great!

Got asked to come back tomorrow. That's four days in a row plus Friday. Supposed to be a part-time job doing 3 days. I guess they like me. I like them too.

Oh man, found a hair from Puddy today on my black pants...tears. She's with me. I love you Puds.

So Far So Good!

Things are going well!

Started work last week. Great people. Nice, simple job. No hassles!
Had an ok weekend, just adjusting my schedule.
I worked today (Monday) and the next two days, plus Friday.
Not too shabby.
I still weep at times over Puds, mostly as I'm commuting. It will get easier. She's out of pain, that's what I concentrate on. Her death and others have answered some questions too.
Had a great dinner (made it myself).
Paul, my bud should be back tomorrow after being away 9 days. Went to check on him by the pool but he must still be off.
Later!

Oh, and I am totally in love with the movie "The Illusionist". I've watched it a couple of times and am searching around YouTube.

Day Four

Today was my first day at work. It went well and I feel MUCH better.

Just noticed the Space Shuttle Endeavor went up today. Hmmm.

Anyway, now I have a day off tomorrow to sort a few things out - without guilt. And, then back to work on Friday. Phew!

Day Three

I got a job!!!! Finally!!!!

And, on the way there I saw the birthday girl.
Again, Happy 74th.

Day Two

I called and wished her a happy birthday!

Have an interview tomorrow and looking forward to it.

It was quiet...being a holiday today.

Day One

Happy Birthday - tomorrow to a special person.

Been getting out and swimming with my buddy Paul. Going for walks.

Thinking of the Pudster.

Janet Matthias