Checking In

It is now 2016 and much has changed.

I just took a year off, a well needed year off.  What a productive year!

I have recalled much of my life and review it.  Success!  I not only just stopped running around trying to cope, I finally got to figure out where I've been, what I've been doing.

It hasn't been easy but worth it.

:)

A Year and a Half Later

This week I upgraded to Windows 10.  I've had the computer for a couple of years now and it makes a world of difference to me.
I don't blog often, obviously, and when I opened/signed in I was surprised to find my last post is exactly what I've been thinking about in the last few days.
My life has changed.  I left Sears, thankfully.  I've had a chance to heal, reflect, take care of myself and I look forward to a new job, something enjoyable.
I did the garden again and am just starting to get tomatoes to eat.  I enjoyed working on it in the Spring and early Summer.  The last month or two I felt a little displaced yet glad to be out of the heat.  With Fall/Autumn approaching I look forward to dressing well again, going out to work and settling in for the Winter.
This break January - August has been a long time coming and was necessary for my health and wellbeing.

Pope John Paul II is Canonized by Pope Francis I

Interesting.  I am one of the few people that have been personally confirmed by Pope John Paul II.  I was on duty during his visit and charged with protecting his life.  My connection with the Fatima nuns came through and she sent me a gift.  He was a kind man, had kind eyes.  One of my coworkers in the military sent my file to the Vatican.  There it may sit.  I feel a connection to the new Pope from Argentina.  Another kind soul.  Wanted to make a special note of this in my blog.

Interesting day.  It is Passover.  I just watched one of the best speeches I have ever heard by Conon O'Brien at the 2011 Commencement.  He spoke of disappointment and how to survive it.

Harold Ramis Died

Well, Harold died in the early hours of the morning.
I can't think of a project we didn't work on together.
He and Lorne were roommates for a while and when I was called to come to New York when Chris died he was there...yawning...but was there.
He wrote down some of the best lines I ever came up with and they are out there for people to hear.  He was a tower of strength to me and to Lorne.

He had been sick for a while and I think he knew it was his time, just after Sochi Olympics.
I don't feel sad.  In fact, I feel like he did what you are supposed to do...leave them laughing.  He had a full and wonderful career.

Rest in Peace my very dear friend.

Thanksgiving Day 2013

Thank you God.
Thank you to my family, my friends, my workmates for all I have been given.
Thank you God for my food today and everyday.  Saying Grace.

Thank you for giving me the knowledge and the wisdom I have needed to survive and live.
The realization that I have a daughter to love, to share with, family and friends that care about me.

Thank you to Corey for letting me live and rent here so I have a home to live in and to build a life.
Thank you for the computer so I may have access to information, able to learn, see my loved ones.
Thank you Lorne for being my companion all these years and for the years to come.

Thank you to all for helping me heal from all my injuries.  Let me live.  Let me have peace and love and joy in my life.

New Era

Tonight was Jimmy Fallon's first show on the Tonight Show.  Will Smith and U2 came along for the ride.  They played on Top of the Rock and then acoustically on stage. 

I just reread my last post.  I am very insightful.  Laugh.
For the last while I've been going through hell.  Physically, emotionally, mourning all the pain and suffering I have been through.

I had to stand up for myself at work after some layoffs and then a restructuring plan where I got the sh*t end of the stick again by being removed from the Shoe Department and into what is called Replenishment.  I said no.  When asked what I wanted I did not hesitate to say I wanted to finally be on the Customer Service Desk (CSD) where I belong.  My body cannot take the hauling and lifting and walking any more!  They agreed.  However, we will see what happens.

Seth moves with Fred to the 12:30 spot after Jimmy's show.  It has all changed.  Lorne is now the Executive Producer of all three shows.  Next year will be the 40th Season of SNL.  We have made it this far.

I'm not sure what all this means.  I haven't felt well for a while and pray I heal.  I just needed to write it down so I remember.  I have so many memories of the show and my time there.  I think I have to change from being a survivor to a former survivor so I can start living.